Air to breeze, Light to see, Sun to live...

why is it so difficult to forget... thought it would be easier and time would help but it isn't...

As an experienced manager you learn how to manage, how to delegate, how to influence, how to listen and how to motivate and steer others... but do we learn also how to manage "the" human beeing when it comes to emotions and feelings?

I would say clearly "NO" - as this is something where we do not usually want to challenge ourselves with, emotions and feelings are something that you try to hide in our business environment as they make you probably vulnerable and this is usually seen as a disadvantage - so we hide this side of our personal life.

I thought it would be over already but it isn't - now hiding behind lots of work, extensive travelling, going out and scatter yourself... but then suddenly some music, some news, some pictures, some places or even some people make you to think about the past and your heart gets that pressure and you cant gulp or breathe anymore...

What or who will make that gonna change... Ms Perfect...? I have made up my mind (at least I hope so now) that I wont accept any compromise at this stage after what happened - even if this sounds very selfish but why should I ... sorry for all those whom I insult with this behaviour.

10 minutes...

today was the expected day... just came back from court and it took only 10 minutes to get divorced...

Sometimes it takes month until you can be sure that a shy first attempt will end up in a long term relationship... then you get married but even for taking such a decision you take a looooong time - in my case almost 10 years - and then suddenly "booomm", something happens, not expected, not predictable, not controllable...

at the end no more words about this anymore ...

To take some of Michael Bublés words... "...there is a new day, there is a new life..."

Now managing a new life, 2 jobs at the moment in parallel, beeing a single can be difficult sometimes, very funny, very sexy and much much more...

Let's see where this new life will bring me...

Cheers!